love.lies.lust.

I know you love me.
But knowing is just not enough.
Make me feel it.

10:50 PM

it's not just a gay thing. its Equality.

You can sign the open letter to the PM at http://www.repeal377a.com/letter/sign/.

8:07 PM

HELLO! sorry didnt update for a really long time. was working and than if i wasn't i'm really tired. haha.. anyway, last friday met up with Gilbert's friends to do the video for him, as some of you all know. and it turned out really funny. haha..

and on saturday he made me really angry, but let's not talk about it.

than on Sunday, he asked if he could send me to work cos i was working in the afternoon.. and obviously i panicked cos the prezzie's with me and all and i'm bringing it to work cos of the suprise, so i said "my dad's sending me there.." cooked up by his friend. haha. and so i slimed around at work getting really excited and when i finially knocked off, it was about 12.45am. zzz. its so late i know.

rushed down in the company cab to downtown BK to meet bao ming when i was struggling with the stupid prezzie, cake and my shoebag. haha.. while lighting the candles, nichols walked out and said, "gilbert went out and saw the cake.. he was like'Baoming bought me a cake but i'll pretend i don't know'" which made us really sian..

BUT HE THOUGHT I WAS BAOMING'S SISTER. -.- so ok la, there's still the element of surprise. haha. let him watch the video and we all thought he'd cry but he said he's a guy so he cannot cry.. but at least he ALMOST cried? ok whatever..

than on monday, he ponned school though i told him not to. so he just came over to my house really early in the morning.. went to town and i bought him a balloon pig!! the air walker thingy.. he likes it more than he likes me can.. watched Mr Woodcock which was super retarded.. than went to Fish and Co for dinner. they made him stand on the chair and everyone had to sing a birthday song for him.. haha.. not bad la, he's rather sporting.

the pics are here!!

10:24 AM

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY GILBERT! YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU!!!

Gilbert's birthday video is here. http://www.veoh.com/videos/v13162212MqxxBCx

5:19 PM

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca- age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shavingcologne and they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss."
Emily - age 6

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."
Nikka - age 6 (We need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling. He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.">
Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Brad Pitt."
Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image)
Karen - age 7

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8

And the final one -- Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,"Nothing, I just helped him cry"

9:00 PM

when you pray to God for help, God doesn't go "Poof! here's your bag of money." or "Poof! this is what you need." but instead he give you the chance or opportunity for the help to come.

when you pray to God for wisdom, you dont wake up one morning all bright and shiny and your head is filled with so much knowledge you could do a phD straight away. He gives you the opportunity to go to school and study. (and maybe discovery channel too.)

when you pray for love, you dont wake up all warm and fuzzy. he gives you the opportunity for the people around you (or you) a chance to show some act of kindness or love or whatever. like your mom leaving some cash cos she secretly knows you're broke.

when you pray for family, the people you're born with may not understand you or be there for you. but the family you CHOOSE are always there. no matter what.

i love you and i miss you bimbo partner.
(AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!)

9:15 PM

NATASHA IS A NABEI FUCKING RUSSIAN NAME. NOT A FUCKING MALAY NAME.
I AM NOT FUCKING MIX. I AM PURE CHINESE AND THOSE FUCK FACES HAPPEN TO HAVE THE SAME NAME AS ME. NABEI CB.

"The girl's name Natasha \n(a)-ta-sha\ is pronounced
na-TAH-shah. It is of Russian origin."
"The meaning of the name Natasha is Born On Christmas Day"

FUCK LA.

5:45 PM

"Do not judge a person by their backside. Its the nehneh that counts."

wtf!!!! hahahaha!

oh, and

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY JASMINE!

11:07 PM

Shawn calls my BF - Gilb
Jas calls my BF - Gib /Gib-bert
Mayling calls my BF - Gil

anything else? hahaha.

9:31 PM

well, good luck to my first day of work! :D haha.

12:28 PM