love.lies.lust.

you follow your head when it comes to romance

Maybe you've been burned before, or maybe you're just too busy changing the world, but when it comes to your love life, you definitely look before you leap. While you might not be cautious in every aspect of your life, love is an area you tread on lightly. Let's face it, you'd rather have a little more control over your emotions, but they're sometimes hard to pin down. So rather than get lost in them, you, and many of us, probably prefer to focus on other aspects of your life.

It's not that you don't want love to wash over you so you feel all warm and fuzzy inside. It's just that you'd probably like to fall in love when it best fits into your calendar. Still, with your smarts, you're probably able to sense when you're up for a little romancing and when you're not. Just remember, if you're ever on the fence, you want to fall off on the side where someone's going to catch you. Especially if he's tall, dark, and handsome.

11:46 PM

here are the pics for chalet.

you know what? my lap has been confiscated by my unreasonable father cos he feels i spend too much time on it. and i'm currently using my sister's. its just i was downloading prison break and it took me 3 days to reach 90% and he had to shut it down and take my lap away cos i was like 10 secs late in meeting my parents downstairs.

and the past few days i've been feeling down and even more lonely. but i know its all in my head and i'll try to bucker up.

oh, i spent the past few days finishing off season 3 of the L word and OC (thanks to gilbert who according to him said that he comb half of KL just to find OC for me). sad sad bloody ending. gah.

my dad is so bloody unreasonable. he just came in and shouted at me cos i cant use my comp i had to use my sister's. what the fuck is wrong with that? i was talking to my classmate, tessa who currently is holidaying in sabah. IS THAT FUCKING WRONG? my sister dosent mind. why must he?

in oc, kirsten said "they say you'd marry your father."

i obviously dont want that. i'll rather commit suiside. just that day they belittled me, and i sat there crying wanting at least a human act of kindness or maybe a hug or something, my mother ignored me like i was sitting there staring into space and continued shoving things away and prolly thinking that if she ignored me i wont be a problem anymore. and you know what that bastard said? ""you better shut up." how nice. then my darling sister fetched me a mug or water.

oh, i tottaly feel loved.

and if there's anyone i can trust in this house to show me some love, its my 12 year old sister. at least she msged me an "i love you altholugh you can me annoying sometimes" kind of msg on xmas.

oh and when i was crying myself to sleep that night, mother came into the room and found my sister listening to her mp3 and sleeping. and she said: "why? noisy ah?" WTF. must it be because my sniffling into the pillow cos no one wants to wipe my tears noisy? and not cos its wrenching my sister's heart to hear me so upset thats why she's drowning my sobs with her MP3?

and to think nic thought the father was charming. i wanna shoot her in her head now.

mother said i never failed to drag myself out of bed when i'm meeting my friends and when we go out as a family, SHE has to drag me. first of all, i dont feel like a family. not anymore. and secondly, my friends hug me and show me some love (even the tinest bit of concern) when i cry. they wipe my tears and curse at whoever who made me cry to make me feel better even f they did it. sorta.

nic says my parents love me. but they're obviously not showing it..

oh, and i've made up my mind. i'm going to get that bloody navel piercing wether mother likes it or not, once i've saved up enough.

i'm hurt angry sad insane. all rolled into one. i cant even stand being in the same room as them.

if i ever die one day, they'll be the last of the list of people who'd own my possesions.

8:54 PM

they say absense makes the heart grow fonder?

i think thats bullshit.

1:05 PM

Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the country side
Sitting in the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Ain't gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be my love

i wonder what 2006 brought me. ask me again in 6 more days.

btw, clique, you guys wanna come over on 31st? countdown at my place. if ur lucky my mom will serve u red wine. MUHAHHAHA!

5:35 PM

merry christmas everyone. i know its the holidays and everyone tend to get hornier, so 2 words of advice. Trust Druex. HAHA. and to my gay friends, go get laid la. i'm sure you'll want it. :D

chalet pictures uploading in progress. will leave the link once its done. :)

have i told u DXO sucks? its really small. its smaller then SJC's hall la! tsk tsk.

i love you, my friends. here's a kiss! -MUAHHHH! claim ur presents soon!

happy holidays!

5:21 PM

we took a million and one pictures in taiwan and it'll take a million years to upload! so when i'm more free i'll do it. and also, i'm going to chalet with the clique (like yay!) and DXO on thurs. its been long since i last stepped into a club.so if you dont hear from me the next 3-4 days, you know why.

kevin: please email me your flight details. i'll try to check my mail on thurs ok? :D

3:11 AM

as i was going home yesterday, i got a surprising call from joey! haha. its been like super long since i last talked to her. she said she litteraly bumped into this girl who looked like me. and i qoute, "not the you now but the you when i first knew you." and so i replied "the young, innocent, geeky me?" and she said: "ya."

and i dont know if its good or bad. hmm.

oh, and she got into trouble with her girl cos she talked to me for 12 mins and 45 secs. but i miss her. :D

replies!
eug: eh! why u never go online one?
rachel: oei, when u wanna claim ur books ah. next week i got chalet, shall i send them over with my sis? but its a really HUGEEEEEE box.
gerard: oei boon kheng! i am not boon seng la!
nicc: love you too babe!
ko: shuddup!! i am NOT boon seng! eh, claim ur keroro soon ya!

7:41 PM

10:55 AM

well, i HAVE been busy with stuff! like sheila's birthday and Prom . (and i have no idea why i have difficulty uploading the pics. gah!)

and also,

i went to vivo city with the gang.

outing with the pratas.

anf finally sentosa! which gave me a tan!!

4:56 PM

i would like to quote something from aaronn chong che che's blog!

"it was very nice of nat and mel to pop by today! nat just appeared from literally nowhere and i almost died from shock, of course i didn't because since she grew prettier, no point dying anyway."

MUAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!

12:58 AM

i'm sorry. i know i havent been updating, but heck. i've been out and about. mapling and hanging out with my friends. :D

PISCES
Caring and kind
Smart.
Center of attention.
Too Sexy, DAMN IT.
Very high sex appeal.
Has the last word.
The best to find, hardest to keep.
Fun to be around.
Extremely weird but in a good way.
Super good in bed.
Good Sense of Humor!!!
Thoughtful
A partner for life

got that from some shit in friendster.

got an advert to announce.

feeling down and out? stuck in a rut and cant get out? need help with relationships again? feel free to call 1800-natasha. always a listening ear available whether ur the dumper or dumpee! 24/7. need referals? just ask around!

gah. -.-

3:19 PM